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Steady

Steady The rain started gently, welcomed on that hot, dry day. When we heard thunder in the distance, our parents called us inside where I sat at the window, cozy, and watched the trees begin to shutt... Read More

Window

Window There is a pain that stands between me and the world. Like a wall, it keeps me separated, living in its shadow. It is the pain that followed me out of childhood, based on bad information imprin... Read More

Milestones

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Happy Sunday morning! This one was written a while ago, but today, I dedicate it to our friends, Bryan and Petra, Josephine and Russ, who lost their dear, kind, beautiful mother, Diana, this past week... Read More

Source

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Source Unlike these birds who wake up singing, I like to start my day slowly, quietly. I sit at this window and stare for a bit into the contrasting shades of green. The green tells me- reach up, grow... Read More

Birthday Girl

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It’s been 64 years now, but still the same feeling. Birthday Girl Fifty-eight years ago today, my mother gave birth for the tenth time. I do not know if it was day or night, a long labor or shor... Read More

Kindness

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Kindness From the porch I see ferns and wildflowers and lush oak saplings emerge through last year’s leaf litter. A phoebe flitters back and forth to its nest above the door, full of desperate hatch... Read More

Months

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Months The months fly past, each with its own essence, its own meanings and memories gathered from all the years on this journey around and around the sun. I say good-bye to a month and in no time at ... Read More

Entropy

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Entropy You know that moment in movies when the main character, having spent day and night chasing a murderer, conquering demons, saving lives, comes home to their high rise apartment with its wall of... Read More

Resilience

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Resilience We humans- we were made to adapt. Our very survival depends on it. Sure, we’d rather not. We resist, we deny, we shake our fist. We feel overwhelmed by the impossible magnitude. But slowl... Read More

Primal

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Happy Sunday morning and happy Easter! My mother was born on Easter day, 1920. She died during Holy Week, 2015. She was an Easter kind of person. Her almost always cheerful disposition belied the trau... Read More

Smoothing

Smoothing I’m onto you, Mind. I know what you’re up to. How, as I go through a challenging experience, you kick in, deal with, adapt. But also pull back, detach, protect. Then, afterward, you begi... Read More

Toward Love

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Toward Love “The heart beneath is teaching to the broken heart above.” Leonard Cohen Here you are at this precise time, in this exact place, at this very age, the culmination of so much. Every mom... Read More

Early March, Five am

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Early March, Five am Two cardinals take up a call and response this morning, one trilling up, the other down. They are calling us awake from the night, from the long winter when they were mostly quiet... Read More

Essence Song

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Essence Song While the chaos of the world spins out of control, encroaching, threatening, step back for a moment and listen. Beneath the noise, there is a familiar wordless melody calling to you. It i... Read More

Mid-February

Mid-February Look at the tree. Just by growing, by reaching toward the Light, it provides so much- breath and beauty, shade and haven, nourishment. It doesn’t punish itself, but endures what must be... Read More

Other People

Other People Of course, the big lessons came from family members, teachers, the major players in your life. But there were other, less obvious people, too. You know who they were- a neighbor whose kid... Read More

Dear God

Dear God Dear God, As you know by now, I am not a fan of pain in any form, my own, of course, but especially not in my children and now grandchildren. Always way worse. I know, I know. It’s an unavo... Read More

Beyond Memory

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Beyond Memory Childhood was fleeting compared to the decades and phases of adulthood, still ongoing. So long ago now, I can barely remember its particulars, only its essence, only brief images that em... Read More

NewYear’s Resolution

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New Year’s Resolution Take a bite of warm apple sauce on this frigid January day. Remember your small granddaughter climbing the rickety ladder by the tree, its branches drooping with fruit. Remembe... Read More