Letting Go

Letting Go There was so much you had to let go of to get to this place, this intersection of what you do and who you are- dreams that weren’t really your own, worn out beliefs, old habits of thought... Read More

Core

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Core I think that at the very core of me, often hidden beneath the fear and trauma, the busyness and distraction, the grief, there is pure joy. Ever renewing, it has sustained me all these many years ... Read More

Passing

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Mya turned 12 this week. She is absolute perfection. Passing So many similarities— The way they sleep so much, Struggle to open their eyes, Their gaunt frames, Flailing limbs, Iridescently thin skin... Read More

Clear and Bright

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Clara is 38 now and I still feel exactly the same. Clear and BrightTo Clara on her 34th birthday Being your motherhas so defined my path,it is hard to conceive thatthere was a timebefore. But on this,... Read More

Dreams

Dreams My husband told me he had a dream that he was running like the wind. Oh, yes. I know just the one. I, too, dream of running fast, of singing like a bird at dawn, of writing like a stream in spr... Read More

Introversion

Introversion When I am around a lot of people, there is a little scribe in my brain who insists on taking notes, processing every single interaction. He is very thorough and writes slowly with his tin... Read More

Missed Connections

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Missed Connections Real life is hard. We are busy, distracted, preoccupied. My words are insufficient, awkward. I say the wrong things or I don’t know what to say at all. We just keep missing connec... Read More

Here I Am

Here I Am I don’t spend much time contemplating the future, which is why it always surprises me when it comes anyway and so soon. I am more focused on trying to reconcile the past, because by now, t... Read More

A Blessing

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A Blessing As you set out on the path ahead, may the difficulties of the past be transformed into strength and compassion. May your fears be channeled into alert determination. May self-doubt recede s... Read More

New Year’s Resolution

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New Year’s Resolution Take a bite of warm apple sauce on this frigid January day. Remember your small granddaughter climbing the rickety ladder by the tree, its branches drooping with fruit. Remembe... Read More

What If

What If? What if, instead of living in its shadow, we shone just the gentlest light into the secret corners of our grief? What if, instead of pushing it away, we held the trembling animal of shame in ... Read More

Elegy To My Father

Happy Sunday morning! This week marks 42 years since my dad died and today, our big family will gather for a Christmas celebration. I will look for him in the faces and personalities of our children a... Read More

Here in the Woods

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Here in the Woods I want to say that it is simpler here, but there is infinite complexity everywhere I look. Life here is focused, steadfastly determined to grow, to repair, to connect. The oak sprout... Read More

November

This one is for my two November girls- Laurel and Grace, now 35 and almost 27. November November. I remember the long days of anticipation as I neared the end of pregnancy, watching for any sign of la... Read More

What is a Poem?

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What is a Poem? You know that feeling when you’ve got too much to do and you can’t imagine how you are going to pack it all in so to calm yourself, you count ahead to the next quiet day, which doe... Read More

I Want to Learn

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I Want to Learn Instead of rushing to resolution, insisting on an instant fix, I want to learn to clear a space for the difficult questions. I would sweep away the debris around it, the panic and proj... Read More

Bringing in the Day

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Bringing in the Day A mother wakes before her children To experience silence, To pray for strength. A man stands at the window Each morning, coffee in hand, And watches shadow Turn to light. An old wo... Read More