I have no words

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I have no words sufficient for this moment. As the depth of this trauma sinks in, as the outrage continues, as the grief washes over, all I know to offer is a moment of silence. All I know to do is ba... Read More

Wren

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Wren There are whole days that I am on the verge of tears and I don’t know completely the reason why. I bring my heart to You, God. Where else can I go? I set it before you like a wounded bird, then... Read More

Breath

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Breath In and out, in and out, in and out. In and out, tree and me, we breathe one another. Lung to leaf, she inhales my breath to build her body. Bronchioles branch, delivering her gift to all my cel... Read More

I’m the Mom

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I’m the Mom I wasn’t born a mother, like my children think. Once, not long ago, I was a child, too. I hung my head off the couch and looked at the world upside down, lost myself in play, picke... Read More

Pandemic Dream

Pandemic Dream It is that moment in childhood’s early summer when everything is fresh with possibility and forever makes its promises once more. I open the back screen door and step barefoot into th... Read More

Missed Connections

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Missed Connections Real life is hard. We are busy, distracted, preoccupied. My words are insufficient, awkward. I say the wrong things or I don’t know what to say at all. We just keep missing connec... Read More

Window

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Window There is a pain that stands between me and the world. Like a wall, it keeps me separated, living in its shadow. It is the pain that followed me out of childhood, based on bad information imprin... Read More

How I Want To Remember Us

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This one is dedicated to my mom, who would have been 100 years old yesterday. How I Want To Remember Us We were all there, the whole family, sitting on a blanket together. Waiting. An entire history o... Read More

Spring

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Spring Let’s fall in love again. We’ll unlock this closed house, Open the windows, And sweep complacency From the corners. We’ll step out Into this familiar garden. It’s been asleep, Silen... Read More

Resilience

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I know it doesn’t always go this way. But I believe it can. Resilience We humans- we were made to adapt. Our very survival depends on it. Sure, we’d rather not. We resist, we deny, we shake our fi... Read More

Retrospect

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Retrospect Sure. Looking back, you tell yourself, you would have done things differently. You should have tried harder, been more patient. You could have done more. But retrospect is an observation to... Read More

Letting Go

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Letting Go There was so much you had to let go of to get to this place, this intersection of what you do and who you are- dreams that weren’t really your own, worn out beliefs, old habits of thought... Read More

Book Review

Book Review The main character has kept me company for a while now on quiet afternoons, has coaxed me back to sleep on anxious nights. Against the backdrop of a particular moment in history in a parti... Read More

Mid-February

Mid-February Look at the tree. Just by growing, by reaching toward the Light, it provides so much- breath and beauty, shade and haven, nourishment. It doesn’t punish itself, but endures what must be... Read More

Heaven

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Heaven Maybe it’s a place like I see sometimes in my dreams. We are all children about four years old and we are playing the way children this age do- with total abandon in the moment. Running, clim... Read More

A Vision

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A Vision I see myself an old woman, Lying, one morning, On my deathbed. It would be so clear then. The painful things- Wasted wanting, worries, Time spent following some anxious call, Dark roads of fe... Read More

Foremother’s Solace

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Foremothers’ Solace Late afternoon, waning sunlight streaming in, the familiar, repetitive work of keeping a household afloat finished for the day, I rest. It occurs to me how hard my foremothers mu... Read More