I Don’t Know

I am still learning
to take it
as it comes.
Words like “let go”
and “acceptance”
flow through me,
have become
a constant mantra.

When I was younger,
I worked hard
to forge my own path.
But so blindly determined
to make a mark,
I missed out on a lot.

These days,
I just take a step or two
in the dark
and let the path
appear before me.

I don’t know.
But I’ve never known.
Not really.

In my hardest moments,
this is the source
of all my existential anxiety.

In my best moments,
its the door that opens
to inner peace.

By Maria Brady-Smith